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i love the l word, i want shane's hair, i'd look like an idiot =P.
i just wanted to update with the title's quote from the show, it was funny to me, like "did he just say fathom your pussy? hahaha" =P
today i went prom dress shopping with my gaby and my sister, it was super nice, i'mma get my dress on thursday cause my dog chewed up my $200 that my uncle gave me for my prom dress, what kind of karma is that, my mom and i managed to piece it together well enough, gonna go to the bank to get some good versions =P. i have to shower now, i should be asleep...i love sleep, it's the best, i feel more awake or like things are more real when i'm sleeping, reality feels like a dream to me, it's kind of annoying cause i wish i could really appreciate things the way i do my dreams. poo, i'm off <3.
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[30 Mar 2005|07:28am] |
my birthday was yesterday, it was awesomeness with a bit of craziness that i hopefully won't have to be around again. my gaby came home from costa rica and got me the cutest frame and these little chococat socks that would never fit me but they're imitation chococat so =P hehe. this kid in my film study class got me this little stuffed dog and candy and a card, i seriously never talk to him, i told him monday "yeah, my birthday's tomorrow" but i was so surprised =P. and my jose got me the prettiest orchids and this book that i've wanted for forever called fruits. it's awesome ^_^. i think that's about it for mah birthday, maybe another update later...
thank you aurora for calling for mah birfday, sorry i wasn't home again and for not calling last week, my dad came to town, stayed at my sister's a lot =[ i still <3 you though, tell me when i can call, kay?
<3!
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[22 Mar 2005|02:24am] |
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so spring break has begun with a bang of sleeping til 12, eating and going straight to jose's and having nice fun =], hopefully mari and i get to go shopping wednesday or thursday, we're gonna have some sister time before this weekend, before mah daddy comes to town to make us mopey for another week =P, yep, shopping, movies and a sleepover, we haven't been able to hang out or talk much lately so it'll be super nice ^_^. what else?...i really wanted to go to this lavender cabaret for my birthday but it's 21 and over, so i'm saddened, the other show was nice raunchy, wasn't too into it, but we'll see. need to call adriana and natali about birthday plans, and megan if she's not busy, are you working yet? i dunno anymore =P. i bet none of it will even go through, that's how it usually works for me, but i've been in my happy hopeful moods for a few days now, maybe it'll last =].
i saw the ring 2 on saturday, kinda sucked but i paid so i have to like it =P hehe, it was okay, the faces were the scariest parts and those lasted a whole 1/2 second, but it was nice, got jose out of the house and out of a funk, i like being able to cheer him up when nothing else can ^_^.
i feel like something else is up...dunno.
today i watched these eps of buffy, third season with faith, made me remember how, when i was younger, i loved faith and how i wanted to be like her (i'm a huge loser if you haven't noticed =P), i've always loved the villians, knowing they're on the losing end, i still love them, maybe cause i know i could never be as mean or cold...or maybe cause i know i have been that mean or cold and loved every second of it...whichever. i keep thinking or feeling like i'm hiding something, maybe that's what it is, god knows i haven't always been nice cute little gaby, jose kind of made me that way, like a side effect of having happiness or something =P. i don't necessarily mind, i mean how far can someone go just being a bitch all the time? i don't need that kind of stress letting myself be annoyed that much so i guess i'd just rather be nice.
poo, enough ranting, it's almost 3 in the morning, friggin spring break =P imma go to sleep
<3's.
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[17 Mar 2005|09:29pm] |
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i like life right now, it's not horribly exciting but it's kinda cool, i mean spring break trips have gone out the window but downtown shopping sprees will definitely make up for it so i don't mind plus getting the job at Sanrio (hello kitty store) is pretty friggin awesome, i found out yesterday, i'm so happy about it that store makes me all happy with it's cuteness! hah. today was nice, i finally got to hang out with my gaby , ended up being me, her, nick and joey but it was still fun, nice to get out with new people. gaby's awesome; for my birthday i wanna hang out with her, megan and adriana, i dunno what i wanna do yet though, maybe just go to lunch or something, my mom said i'll have the car. my birthday's the 29th, just a couple weeks, the big 1-8. wootwoot for ms gaby =]. but i dunno what i wanna do, my uncle wants to get me an ipod and take me to a play or something, and i told my mom that'd it'd be awesome if she just got me a ticket for some stand-up, i'd love that, and maybe i'll talk to mari and juan about taking jose and i to the burlesque show in the north side, that'd be awesome. i'd want to have a big party or something, but i really don't talk to nearly enough people to have one, so it's cool, i like to spend whole weekends for my birthday but spring break gave me a whole extra week, yayay. bah, i think i'm done, off to shower
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you were right, i should be more hateful or hold more grudges.
guess who i'm starting with?
i'm long over it all.
thanks.
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| "why is his head so big? WHY is his head so big!??!" |
[28 Jan 2005|09:43pm] |
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sighh. i wanna update but i dunno what to say....this week was finals, they were all pretty easy, college algebra was kinda eh, but i'm pretty sure i passed with a b, i'm hoping. everything else was super easy. i'm getting really lazy in fashion, i've come to find out that i don't like doing jeans...they're dumb, i wanna just make skirts and shirts, i'm just so tired lately, i don't wanna do nuffin. and i still have to do my essay for scholarships, there's no way my dad's gonna pay 34,000 for just an associate's degree, and i need to try to get the half-tuition scholarship from the school, but i need to do 10 designs...i'm not a designer, i just make the stuffs, the few that i have, i like, but other than that, i just don't see myself as super original great designer, like i feel like the other students will do so much better, but maybe that's how they get us fashion production kids, they know we're not designers so they're like "best portfolio o' crap wins" or like "none of this is good enough, you all lose!" =P i just wanna be a fashion design teacher, i love when i teach the girls in class, especially the ones who really wanna learn, like the sophmores and juniors, they're so fucking awesome, the girls in my class are such brats, they need to grow up or get over themselves, not all of them, but most of them. like i have adriana, my personal student that mrs. rivera assigned to me, she just wants to pass but she's one of the most dedicated for not even "really into it". i hate being self-conscious, i always feel like she really doesn't like me, like she just talks to me to be nice, i dunno, i asked her why the other girls just kind of avoid me or don't wanna talk to me, she said that they've mentioned how they think i'm a teacher's pet. ¬_¬ right, so apparently liking what i'm doing since i'm gonna go to college for it and being good at what i do is being a teacher's pet, mrs. rivero talks to me cause she knows i'm not a little brat like the other girls, not like i do a bunch of crap for her, brats need to get their shit straight, dummies. like i said, gotta get over themselves. i just thought it was wierd how for some reason they all avoid me like the plague unless they need help, then everyone's like "gaby!" and then it's like "okay you can go now" =P. poo to them, then they wonder why i'm around adriana more, losers.
i love foster's home of imaginary friends, it's awesome, all cute and goofy. it's the bestest. i've gotten addicted to invader zim, i watched a few of the second season episodes, gir's so great, "why is his head so big? WHYYYY is his head so big?!?!?" i want a gir doll. haha, yesterday i said that to my mom out of nowhere, she was so confused, it was hilarious. then i was like "kay, night" hehe.
tomorrow's a date with jose, i love being able to go on real dates since i got my license, it's the bestest. maybe cause he's the bestest =P.
i think my uncle set the date, i think we're going to italy on march 21st during spring break, and then we're gonna go to london for the last few days, i'm kinda nervous cause i'll be all confuzzled like "what the hell is going on!?!?" but i'll try, it'll still be good great fun to be in another country without my mama and with my sister. when we went to london my freshmen year my mom was so mean to me, and i was pretty bitchy too because of her and the plane trip. but i'm HOPING that this time will be better, especially since we'll have a week. i dunno, my uncle spoils us, he has no real family like kids cept for us, so he likes to do what he can to spoil us, he's the best, he's so excited cause he'll be able to walk around a lot more cause last time he was HUGE, but he got that gastric bypass surgery and so far he's lost 80 pounds and walking isn't that big of a deal for him anymore, so by march he should be all set, yayaya for junior!
okay i think that's on, now it's hihi puffy ami yumi and then degrassi, so i'm out. nightnight honey bunnies <3
(good luck megan, we love you. <3hug<3)
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| "you and your third dimension....it's cute." "oh? how many do you have?" "five......thousand?" |
[11 Jan 2005|10:37pm] |
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i think for once i may just do a real update...let's see what there is to write...
okay, i think i'm finally over it, cause i think perhaps she might be the closest she'll ever get to over it, so meh, i hate grudges more than anything in this world, they disgust me.
anyhoo, on saturday, my mom called my sister, mari, to see if she wanted to go to breakfast with us, mari said she was sick, so later in the evening, about 8, my mom called mari and mari could barely talk and such so my mom got really worried so we went all the way to wrigleyville to pick her up from her house and brought her back to the emergency room where we waited from 10 to 3 in the morning, well, i waited til 1, my mom and sister had to stay til 3, turned out mari had strep throat but my mom wanted her to stay here so she stayed til monday afternoon when i drove her home. it was my first time on lake shore drive, i was a little nervous, but turned out nice, now i know how to get to mari's and bug her when i have the car, hehe. oh yeah, did i mention that? how i got my license over winter break? indeed, only took about a year for my social security card to finally get to my house, we went as soon as i got it so yay for me even though i have no where to go cept a few blocks away to jose's, but it works out cause now i don't have to burden his dad with having to give me a ride at 7 or 10, i feel so bad when we have to wake him up. i've been tried to rid myself of being people's burdens, like i started having my mom take me or pick me up from school when she can cause i don't wanna bother megan anymore and, as said, jose's dad. maybe that's become my resolution, who knows. now my job is to not be a burden on my mom, but i still have a couple years right? really til march when i turn 18 but i'mma live upstairs and eat her food until i'm able to leave, hehe, so until then, i'll only be a burden on my mama =P but i think that's my job as her child.
today was craziness, so many fights, i only got caught by the first one, all during 6th period there was an insane ammount of fights for one school, it all ended with 9 squad cars, 1 paddy wagon and paramedics for a kid that a cop tased (sp?), also lots of creepy police officers wandering the school til the end of the day, i didn't wanna go in the hallways.
jose's was interesting today, involving lots of wrestling, pouting and ending with lots of hugs and kisses and kisses on parts where jose accidently hurt me (arms and leg, go beat him up lewis hehe). i have to try to finish reading lewis' jthm, i really like it. okay, imma go call jose and read morbid comics, yayay, great way to end the day.
gaby-<3
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i love jose. he's my bestest friend. he makes me amazingly happy. i love being able to make him smile. i love that i'm the only person outside of his family that reallllly knows his silly side. i love that no one knows us the way we know each other. i love knowing that no one ever will. i adore the fact that she thinks she does, almost as much as i do the fact that she was no wear close.
no matter what happens later in our life, we'll always belong to each other cause if we could love or care about anyone else any more, i think we'd die. as teenaged as it may sound, he makes my days great no matter how down i am. i can cry about him, but he always knows how to make me smile. three years and then some, and things are as great as ever, maybe even more so.
sorry for this not being a real update, he just makes me super happy. i'll kill anything that tries to take this happiness away from me, i'll never give him up again, that was dumb of me but hell, it made us stronger and i dunno if she realizes it, but it's because of her and what he realized he knew the entire time: he loves me, and didn't want anyone else.
man...he's great...i'm such a girl =P
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| i <3 annie hall, go see it...now. |
[05 Jan 2005|09:08pm] |
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“I would never want to belong to any club that would have someone like me for a member.”
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So I'm coming back
Today we'll break the night's attack
You always you always forget
There's no shame in that
And this time I will unpack
You always you always forget
I stepped out of the house today
I walked down where those dead men lay
I stepped out of the house today
I walked down where those dead men lay
Now both of your arms they are broken
So all they can do - they can only stay open
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let's all talk about people in generalization or the third person or whatever, eh?
i don't like hating people, it makes me even more mad then the person. i tried so hard to stop hating, it took so much out of me to stop being bitter, and she comes along and tries to take the one great thing i have going for me, it was a long time ago...maybe i'd get over it if she did, but i don't like not being respected in a mannerly fashion, telling the world of things that she should've gotten over months ago is a complete lack of respect, so it kind of pisses me off. after trying so hard not to, i hate her even more for making me hate again. i dispise this feeling, as unnatural as it feels, at the same time it feels more natural than loving, to me, when it happens. anyway, i'll manage...i have to try to be mature or whatever, the insolent annoyance will hopefully pass and i'll be able to....well, talk her through getting over it and realize that he wouldn't care if she was dead or alive. well, maybe that's not completely true...it just wouldn't phase him for more than a couple of minutes if at all.
i don't like being mad, clinging to the past doesn't help, i didn't even think about it at all, but the fact that she does upsets me mostly because it doesn't help her at all to just put her through more emotional pain than she needs, i can't respect that, but i can say to get over it...he doesn't care, so neither should you.
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"glares of hate burn into pale skin exposing empty veins connecting to a hollow heart. Show me that hate in human form so that I can seduce it to love me."
-i was an angry little sophmore, or just more expressive of my insanity, i think the second. very strange. <3.
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[29 Nov 2004|09:16pm] |
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okayokayokay, so update, right? hrm, okay, same as always with jose, he makes me happy and saves me from the horrors of highschool trauma, i officially, or finally in my senior year, hate high school and how it makes me feel, people are mean, in general, not just to me since i'm not really social cept to my megan, christopher and adriana, i wish i was more social but i don't really see a point in it, i'm leaving the school so FUCK IT. also, Alexander was way too long, but good.
oh yeah, jose mentioned it, but yeah, saw HIM instead of mewithoutyou to avoid the scenesters, which in actuality sounds way retarded cause the outcome of the spontaneous idea turned into tiny bams and ville valos and kids with their parents ¬_¬, i would've enjoyed it a lot more if ville didn't ruin his songs with his drunken slurs or barely singing into the mic, i love his voice, that's why i wanted to see them live, jose said the show he went to was way better, but i'm not gonna spend $25 on that again, kthx.
so yesterday i talked to someone new, this girly aurora, she's going out with jose's friend lewis, she's a sweetie, it's awesome talking to someone so innocent and who actually has her own thoughts, i know so few of those but i'm glad i at least know such. so yeah, it was great talking to you, you didn't wierd me out at all ^_^.
tomorrow we turn in the class notables for the yearbook, i never made myself known, i wish i was something but i guess i am kinda plain, i love jose for thinking otherwise even if it's just a bit, oh well.
i feel shitty and can't wait for this teenage angst to go away, i hate looking in the mirror and wanting to look away cause all i can think is "god, you're so ugly, what the fuck" i usually don't think anything but i don't know, just makes being a teenager suck even harder. HATE. ah well, it'll pass, right? it better fucking pass or else someone's gonna get punched in the face...or just randomly bitched at, haven't decided yet.
so how's this for an update? i'm totally procrastinating on writing this 2-week assignment that's due tomorrow and i haven't started, senioritis has officially kicked in and i'm loving it while playing my final fantasy games all over again =P.
gabikens-<3
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[07 Nov 2004|11:12pm] |
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this kimiko pic in the background is a new drawing for a poster by fred gallagher ( fredart.com , megatokyo.com ), i love him, he's awesome and and kind of one of my heroes, and i looooooovvveeee this new drawing, so sad but so cute, <3. so yeah, 3 years went awesomely, saw garden state again and jose bought us a nice dinner at barro which got us sick but i loved it nonetheless. thanks for that ^_^
happy three years, yay for us, i love you tons of boxes ^_^
-<3
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[05 Nov 2004|08:25pm] |
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Three years. I love him. he makes me happier than anyone could imagine, especially him.
i know there've been lots of hard times, but you always manage to make it better, thank you.
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[29 Oct 2004|09:46pm] |
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wootwoot, 3 year anniversary is in ONE WEEK. oh man, 3 years...awesome. we've both messed up on occasion but i do love him, he's my jose and no matter how much people don't have faith in me despite how well they know me, i'm not going to fuck up, he matters too much to me to just mess it up over some bullshit. being able to be so happy after 3 years is awesome, i <3 it.
gaby-<3
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poo. this week was kinda lame. i saw team america with jose on friday, funny but man, can't believe i spent money on that, really wish we saw the grudge, maybe this weekend. i made $45 on the cutest strawberry shortcake costume for a baby, went to her birthday party and saw it, oh man, sooooo cute. during the party my sister fell on her bum, porvecita, got a nasty fucking bruise on her arm. man, those kids went crazy for the pinata, the pinata's wouldn't bust, so mari's boyfriend, ray had to rip them open and one of the little kids bit him, haha, crazy little animals. jose and i stayed at my sister's on friday after the movie, it was nice, he just wanted to watch family guy all night, i ended up knocking out around 1 or 2 though. umm, not much going on at all just thought it was about time to update, no more little dancing thingy. blah, maybe an update later or sumfin =P
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